2007/01/31 13:09 Cess

Alright my lovie? Been thinking bout you :)

2007/01/29 18:21 Rosee

It must seen strange not going 2 the hospital. Do u want me 2 collate the email addresses 4 Clare's account?

29-Jan-2007 17:58 Carol Trayling

From: Carol Trayling
Date: 29-Jan-2007 17:58
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

Hi Rosee

You probably won't know who I am - I'm Carol, Clare's friend from work - we sat opposite one another, and started our jobs at about the same time. I just wanted to say a huge thank you for keeping me in the loop of details that you sent to others, and apologies for not emailing you sooner.

Julie said you were going to visit Clare on Thursday night, when we were going to also see her. How very sad we didn't get to see Clare - sometimes things just aren't meant to be, but I hope you can take some comfort in the fact that we all got to share some very special times with her. Hopefully we will get to meet.

With best wishes

Carol

29-Jan-2007 14:38 Twillis

From: tania willis
Date: 29-Jan-2007 14:38
Subject: Re: http://clareturkington.blogspot.com/
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Oh how cool! If life is not a not a bitch as we have been led to believe over the past few days, then Clare must know about this up there...
Don't worry about a copy, I just wonder how you can isolate the appropriate section & upload to the blog or link it to the blog

Did you get the photos I scanned from Peter?

How is Clare's mum coping- has Julie contacted you in the past 2 days?
T

2007/01/29 11:36 Julie

They've been playing fleetwood mac all morning at work. It's killing me.

Clare's Music for the Funeral

From: tania willis
Date: 29-Jan-2007 14:38
Subject: Re: http://clareturkington.blogspot.com/
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Oh how cool! If life is not a not a bitch as we have been led to believe over the past few days, then Clare must know about this up there...
Don't worry about a copy, I just wonder how you can isolate the appropriate section & upload to the blog or link it to the blog

Did you get the photos I scanned from Peter?

How is Clare's mum coping- has Julie contacted you in the past 2 days?
T

On 29/01/07, Rosemary Ufot Laurence wrote:

Date 29-Jan-2007 10:19

Tania

I did indeed. Dave Pearce should be sending a CD version of the show. He mentioned her twice along with a signed photograph.

Rosee

From: Tania Willis
Date: 29-Jan-2007 03:12
Subject: Re: http://clareturkington.blogspot.com/
To: rosee >

Did you get a request for her?
Damn- how can we download it

I agree with Kitty. Stevie Nicks would be a great choice

Julie Off!cer

To stu_and_anne, ridlydidly

Date 29-Jan-2007 00:05

Subject Re: dave powell

Hi Anne

You know you can call me any time. I listened to Stand back".

"I'm not really that familiar with Stevie, I just know Clare loved her music.

I am definitely going to have Catch the Rainbow by Rainbow as it was a song she loved and introduced me to and it is beautiful. Do you know it?

I just listened to Sara and you're right! It is definately going on. I remember her playing it on several occasions. Please-if you think of anything else let me know. I'm finding it hard to get the 'appropriate' ones. I'm going to push it a bit with sweet child of mine (the rock bit at toward the end) but it is so Clare.

Thank you very much. We'll be starting with Clair by Gillbert O'sullivan. I didn't know the song but Clare used to dance to it with her mum. That has had me in pieces today. The funeral is going to be so difficult.

Thanks again. I love this song! More please.


From: Stuart Hellier
To: Julie Off!cer
CC: Rosemary Ufot Laurence
Subject: Re: dave powell
Date: Sun, 28 Jan 2007 14:34:13 -0800 (PST)

Hey Julie,

Firstly, you have my deepest sympathy for your devastating loss and my respect as you were Clare's best friend and all that you have done for her and her Hong Kong friends, keeping us all in the loop.

For me I would go for Sarah by Stevie Nicks because it is such a beautiful track, and I think more appropriate. I don't want to step on anyone's toes here play it and see what you think. If you don't have it I'll get my hubby to send it to you 'cause I don't know how to do that via this (computer). It was definitely the first one we would always put on when we were having a Stevie Nick's night. I think it would be so right at Clares funeral. Stand Back is a great track but I don't think it is appropriate.

Take good care

Anne X

Julie Off!cer wrote:

Kitty suggested Stand back by stevie Nicks.

Anne, I need you.

I was going to ask which Craig David to put on.

From: "Rosemary Ufot Laurence"
To: "Julie Off!cer" , "Stuart and Anne Helier"
Subject: Re: dave powell
Date: Sun, 28 Jan 2007 19:10:17 +0000

Hi Julie

Listening to Dave Pearce now and thinking of Clare"

"In terms of music Anne mentioned something about Stevie Nicks and I know that Walking Away or Seven Days from Craig David's album are great tunes which remind us of Clare. I have Craig David.

Anne do you have Stevie Nicks?

Rosee

Julie on Clare Turkington

From: Julie Off!cer
Date: 28-Jan-2007 23:39
Subject: Re: dave powell
To: ridlydidly
Cc: stu_and_anne, kittykt88

you used the pic i sent you yesterday! it was one of the few she had with her hair down, she'd just been to the hairdressers and had it straightened and loved it but was still trying to tuck it behind her ears. We were in Ben crouch's and it was her birthday. I think it was 05. God I miss her.

I have a lot to contribute but right now I'm struggling with just writing the emails to everyone. I love everyone's stories. Most of which I have already heard. I'm so glad I met Anne all but briefly (tho stuart would think it was not brief enough as they were very late going back to their place) That too was in Ben C's.

One of the things i want to send you is what i wrote for a dating website called mysinglefriend.com Clare didn't edit what i wrote though we agreed later that the website was shit as beacuse everyone was put on by their friend, no one bothered to look for anyone, just waited to be contacted! I also asked for the impossible as I was too honest about Clare idea man. It was just a summary but was still a few paragraphs. You couldn't sum her up in less.

Thank you so much for doing this.

I've had the worst day so far, bawling and sobbing wise. And now I am nearly out of vodka.

From: "Rosemary Ufot Laurence"
To: "Julie Off!cer"
CC: stu_and_anne, kittykt88
Subject: Re: dave powell
Date: Sun, 28 Jan 2007 20:34:34 +0000

Julie, Stuart, Anne and Kitty

Here is what I have so far. Just heard Dave Pearce do his request and think I shall take a break.....http://clareturkington.blogspot.com/

Rosee

28 Jan 2007 22:59 Tania Willis

From: tania willis
To: ridlydidly
Subject: Re: Pictures from Rosemary: Rosee's Snow Garden
Date: Sun, 28 Jan 2007 22:59:33 +0800

Love your snow garden, am going to show the children as they've never seen snow..."

"I liked your story of Clare giving you all the info & confidence to buy your own place. Well done for doing it."

"It's been a strange these past 2 days, I've been thinking of Clare just as much. There's the sadness but not that desperate panic, knowing Clare is now released from all that pain & fear. Easy for me to say though, a damn site harder for her family to live through though...

I'm sure you have been through a lot of distress these past few days, but I hope you're coping.

Talk to you soon

Tania

Dave Pearce's Tracking Listing for 28th January

January 28 - Two shouts to Clare Turkington

18.55

Strike – ‘U Sure Do’ (Club Tools)
Grace – ‘Not Over Yet’ (Perfecto)
Modjo – ‘Lady’ (Universal)
Kontakt – ‘Show Me A Sign’ (NuLife)
Mason – ‘Exceeder’ (Data/Boss)

Anthem To Start The Show
Snap - 'Rhythm Is A Dancer' (Logic)

Ten City – ‘Thats The Way Love Is’ (Atlantic)
K Klass – ‘Let Me Show You Love’ (Deconstruction)
Tim Deluxe – ‘It Just Wont Do’ (Underwater)
Eric Prydz vs Floyd – ‘Proper Education’ (Data)

Another Chance - 'Sound Of Eden' (Phonetic)
Alex Gaudino - 'Destination Calabria' (Data)

Outrage –‘Tall N Handsome’ (Junior Rock)
Push – ‘Strange World’ (ID & T)
Art Of Trance – ‘Madagascar’ (Lube)
Matt Darey – ‘Liberation’ (Darey Products)

20.00

JamX And Deleon – ‘Can U Dig It’ (Serious)
Public Domain – ‘I Feel Love’ (Feverpitch)
Marcel Woods – ‘Advanced’ (High Contrast Recordings
Yomanda – ‘Synth And Strings’ (Manifesto)

Delerium - 'Silence' (Nettwerk)
Krowd Killaz ft Marc Le Salle - 'Searching (White Label)

Dave In The Mix
Mekk – ‘Twisted’ (Discover Dark)
Bobina – ‘Lighthouse (Sean Tyas Vocal)’ (Maelstrom)
Adam White – ‘Never Tell What You Think’ (White Label)
Senses – ‘Silver Aurora (Frase Mix)’ (Six: Thirty)

Anthem To End The Show
Heaven's Cry - 'Til Tears Do Us Part' (Tidy Trax)

Julie on Clare's funeral

From: Julie Off!cer
Date: 28-Jan-2007 18:35
Subject: Clare's funeral

To: ridlydidly, dave_powell_hk, kradam, ianlantauhk, jas.bushell, landlordincomeservices, katherineshutt, joaniemagill, kitblack, taffinda, tania_scott, catherine, jacqueline.wood, maggiwig, kittykt88, jumpingjackflash65, zulugirl29, chrisfahy2000, punyaardvark, chris.heath, Ericl81372, me_chelletaylor, traylingcarol leearma, wickrob, taniawillis, stu_and_anne, BRADFORDEM, kslantau, padam, gill, joanwillox, Jackie.Christie, mihacienda

Hi everyone.

I still don't have a date for the funeral but it will be in London.

Ann has said that because Clare wasn't very religious, and she has lost whatever faith she had now, she doesn't want some vicar who didn't know her droning on. So Syd will start things off by saying a little speech, then she has asked me to tell people who are coming, that anybody can stand up and say something about Clare if they would like to. So do feel free to prepare something, it will have to be fairly brief so others get the chance. Ann
won't be saying anything as it will be too upsetting and I don't think I will be able to either.

There will be music playing throughout and I'm trying to compile a CD of some of Clare's favourite songs. As you all know, Clare loved her music and this is turning out to be quite tricky as death metal or Dave Pearce's dance tracks somehow don't seem quite appropriate in the circumstances. I know we all had specific songs we will remember her by that she adored and so if there's any you think are fitting please do let me know. Her mum has given
me her suggestions and obviously I have my own having been dragged to rock nights, her first rave and various other gigs and dance floors in the 15 years I've known her. I don't know what I will do without my music teacher. Who will I pick up off the floor now?

I'll let you know any more arrangements when I get them.

It doesn't get any easier does it? I called her landline yesterday to hear her voice but it made me laugh as she had her posh voice on.

Sniff.

Julie.

26-Jan-2007 14:10 Catherine

From: catherine
Date: 26-Jan-2007 14:10
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Dear Rosee

I am so sad to read your emails. Though I only met Clare a few times I remember her clearly and particularly her strength and positivity and I can only begin to imagine how shocked and sad you are at the moment. How very tragic and unbelievable. The only thing to say is that it is a blessing that she is now at peace and leaves everyone with happy memories of her too short life.

I am thinking of you too, you have been through so much and you must be devasted by this as I know you became close friends.... Are you coping OK?

You will probably head to Nuneaton to be with your family? And I am now in Rotterdam permanently, but please let me know if there is anything at all that I can do. Also it goes without saying that if you need to escape the Netherlands are a short skip and jump from UK and a warm welcome will await you.

Thinking of you,

Hugs Catherine xx

26-Jan-2007 11:52 Julie on Clare Turkington

From: Julie Off!cer
Date: 26-Jan-2007 11:52
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington

To: ridlydidly, dave_powell, kradam, ianlantauhk jas.bushell, landlordincomeservices, katherineshutt, joaniemagill, kitblack, taffinda, tania_scott, catherine, jacqueline.wood, maggiwig, kittykt88, jumpingjackflash65, zulugirl29, chrisfahy2000, punyaardvark, chris.heath, Ericl81372, me_chelletaylor, traylingcarol, leearma, wickrob, taniawillis, stu_and_anne, BRADFORDEM, kslantau, padam, gill, joanwillox, Jackie.Christie, mihacienda

Hi Everyone.

As I'm sure you already know now, Clare died yesterday at 4.pm. I wasn't there and I'm torturing myself about that but more importantly, her mum was. She said it was very peaceful, she opened her eyes, looked around and went. No pain, no stress or anxiety and she is thankfully at rest now. She'd been in so much pain and discomfort, it's a blessing. It would have been awful for her to have lingered in that state. Her poor mother is obviously broken hearted but relieved she's not suffering any more.

Clare's parents had been called to go in at 1am yesterday, they contacted me at 5.10 am saying she was asking for me and I got there at 6. She managed to settle and I left at 9 to try and let them both sleep. When I went back at lunchtime Clare was very anxious and they gave her something to make her feel calm. There was no sign she was going to go so quickly at that time.
The nurses where going to transfer her to an air mattress to make her more comfortable and then move her to a bigger room so people could come and visit. They said it would take 4 of them to move her so I left again to get out of the way. If I'd have known I would never have gone, I'm so stupid.

I went back at 4.30 and she looked so peaceful. She had the sunken cheeks and cheek bones at the end she 'd always wanted. Her face didn't look ravaged by this disgusting disease at all, she was truly beautiful.

Syd arrived shortly afterwards and was inconsolable. He'd brought vodka with him and we stayed several hours with her, laughing, crying, remembering what a remarkable lady she was. Our lives are never going to be the same again, I was very drunk by the time we went and I have left my mobile phone there (sorry if you've been trying to contact me, I'll have it back by this afternoon.

I'll let you know as soon as I hear anything about the funeral arrangements. I asked her mum about flowers as some people say not to send them but she said it's fine. Clare was going to change her name back to Gaffney this year and that's what name her mum is going to use. If any of you are in touch with Iain, please make sure she stays away (her mum's request). Clare has
asked to be cremated and that some of her ashes be taken to her favourite beach in Bali and Hong Kong of course.

I'm going to meet Kitty now, she has asked me to go with her to see Clare.

If any of you, at any time would like to meet up for a drink whilst listening to Dave Pearce or very loud rock music, I'd love to see you and as Clare would say, "Go hell for leather".

Julie.

2007/01/26 08:49 Julie

Hi. this is julie. Clare 's best friend. I am so sorry to tell you she died at 4pm yesterday. Her mum was with her & it was peaceful & pain free. She's at rest at Guy's if you want to see her. It was a rare cancer that was so aggressive she didn't even know she had it a few weeks ago.

26-Jan-2007 02:13 Karen Adam

From: Karen Adam
Date: 26-Jan-2007 02:13
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

Rosee

Thanks so much for letting us know about this - I just hope that she knew her friends all over the world were thinking of her. Think I'll go home to tonight, get very drunk, smoke too many cigarettes and dance around the living room to Robbie Williams!

Love to you guys.

Karen

25-Jan-2007 21:05 Paul Kenny

From: Paul Kenny
Date: 25-Jan-2007 21:05
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Rosemary,

I'm finding this hard to believe, thanks for letting me know.

Paul

25-Jan-2007 20:58 Kitty

From: Kath Chapman
Date: 25-Jan-2007 20:58
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

Rosee,

Did you get to see her. I'm beside myself. If I hadn't been on night duty - which I still am. I'm on my final shift - I could've seen her. Julie isn't answering her phone. I guess I'll see you in a few days.

25-Jan-2007 20:19 Sue

From: Sunnygrenada
Date: 25-Jan-2007 20:19
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Rosee I am so so sorry

sue

2007/01/25 20:03 Rosee

Andrew. Thanks 4 ur kind message. I went 2 c lovely service @ Westminster Cathedral & will stay w/ friends in Bracknell 2nite. Will b in 2morrow Rosee

2007/01/25 19:33 Rosee

Thanks Gerald. I was 2 late. It was 4 the best. Now I will alwayss remember her @ her best. Just been 4 lovely service @ Westminster Cathedral & will stay w/ friends 2nite Laters

2007/01/25 18:22 Rosee

In Church now. Will ring when I get out. Let me know nearest tube/train station

2007/01/25 17:31 Julie

She's just died

25-Jan-2007 16:47 Jas Bushell

From: Jas Bushell
Date: 25-Jan-2007 16:47
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Dear Rosee,

My sincerest condolonces...I can't believe it I'm so sorry to hear such awful news.

If you need me to do anything please let me know.

J x

25-Jan-2007 10:35 rob wick

From: rob wick
Date: 25-Jan-2007 10:35
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Rosee,

What a sad day. The whole thing is just a nightmare - I don't know how you are coping. Hope you're as ok as can be expected.

Please will you let us know the funeral arrangements and if Clare wanted donations.

We're all very upset, it seems so unreal.

Lots of love

Wick

xx

25-Jan-2007 08:13 Karen Adam

From: Karen Adam
Date: 25-Jan-2007 08:13
Subject: Re: Fwd: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

Thanks for the info. Will probably write to her Mum later. Have e-mailed Clare through Julie so hopefully it will get through.

Have you been able to see her at all?

Karen

25-Jan-2007 04:40 Ian Savage

From: ian savage
Date: 25-Jan-2007 04:40
Subject: Re: Fwd: Clare Turkington
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Hiya Rosy,

Many thanks for forwarding this email regarding Claire its very sad i cant belive it was just last year we were on the ferry back to lantau here, chatting and laughing just like years back when Claire was living here full time, and then next day claire had phoned me to tell all about her mega hike she had done all over HK central and sheung wan district kind of walked here legs off in a way.

Karen rang me to tell me what had happen and i really couldnt belive it at first, and then i got this email here to confirm it, i do hope Claire dosent suffer too much and that the last few months can be made as much comfortable for her as they humanly can.

I have some really nice pics of Claire on Ann and Stuart junk here in hk taken a few years back if you give me a address i can send them to her if you like, Emma in them as well. it just a thought see what you think ? let me know anyway....."

"anyway if you get to see Claire please give her a big hug from me and wish her all the very best, hope to hear from you soon...

take care

Ian on lantau ... xxxxxxxxxxxx

25-Jan-2007 04:34 Tania Scott

From: Tania Scott
Date: 25-Jan-2007 04:34
Subject: Re: Fwd: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

Hi

I am in touch with Karen and she kindly shared this address with me - thank you though.

I am still in shock... I have just re-read an email Claire sent to me dated 29 Dec... how can this be? Poor Claire and I cant imagine what her parents are going through.

Thanks so much for letting us know and keeping us up to date but it is frightening how quickly things are getting worse.

Take care
x

24-Jan-2007 22:42 Kitty

From: Kath Chapman
Date: 24-Jan-2007 22:42
Subject: Re: Fwd: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

How wonderful you saw Dave Pearce. Clare loves him. We'd listen to his Dance Anthems on Sunday nights and text each other about how great the tunes were. Brilliant. Me, Julie and Clare went to Heaven in December to see Dave DJ. It wasn't one of his Dance Anthems, but it was the 1st time Clare had ever gone 'clubbing', so I'm glad she did that. It was a fun night!!! I'll tell her you saw him, or tell Julie to tell her. There is always that chance that I may not be allowed to see her.

The latest news today is that she won't be going to a hospice as they had hoped. It's unlikely she'll be with us for much longer. From the sound of things, she is deteriorating rapidly. She is not reading her text messages or cards. She is too unwell now. It's so sad Rosee. And so very unfair. I still expect to wake up from this nightmare or be told it's all been a mistake.

Take Care,

Kitty

24-Jan-2007 18:36 Paul Kenny

From: Paul Kenny
Date: 24-Jan-2007 18:36
Subject: Re: Fwd: Clare Turkington
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Hello Rosemary,

Thank you for taking the time to let me know the sad news about Claire, I'm not in the regular group of friends so I probably would not have know if you had taken the time to drop this message.

Anyway if you do get any further news please pass it on to me and in the mean time I will follow your instructions and contact Julie.

Once again thanks for the information.

Best regards,

Paul K.

24-Jan-2007 08:21 Katherine Shutt

From: Katherine Shutt
Date: 24-Jan-2007 08:21
Subject: Re: Clare Turkington
To: Rosemary Ufot Laurence

Rosee

I'm very sorry to hear about your friend. Do I know Clare? Please don't tell me it's lush Clare.......I don't know lush Clare's surname.

24-Jan-2007 07:32 Joanie Magill

From: joanie magill
Date: 24-Jan-2007 07:32
Subject: RE: Fwd: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

DEar Rosie

Thank you so much for forwarding the message about Clare! I had no idea that she was ill. Do you knwo what kind of cancer she has? IS it true that it is incurable!? I am in India right now till Feb 11th. Do you know which hospital she is in I would like to send her some flowers? Thanks again for forwarding the mail. Hope all is well with you. JOanie

24-Jan-2007 06:54 Karen Adam

From: Karen Adam
Date: 24-Jan-2007 06:54
Subject: RE: Fwd: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

Rosee

Thank you so much - I just don't know what to say .... it's almost like a really bad joke.

Got Clare's e-mail at Xmas and she seemed so full of beans and has done such a lot over the past year - I really can't believe it's happening.

I'll e-mail Julie but in the meantime, is there anything I can do? Send e-mail, text message, flowers anything - I'd like her to know I'm thinking of her.

Karen

24-Jan-2007 06:47 Tania Scott

From: Tania Scott
Date: 24-Jan-2007 06:47
Subject: RE: Fwd: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

Christ...this was, and still is, a real shock. Thank you so much for
letting us know though.

What the hell has happened?? This situation sounds absolutely dreadful...Any information is gratefully received.

Thanks again for thinking of us and keeping us in the loop.

Fingers crossed.

Tx

23-Jan-2007 23:38 Kitty

From: Kath Chapman
Date: 23-Jan-2007 23:38
Subject: RE: Fwd: Clare Turkington
To: ridlydidly

Hi Rosee,

You don't know me - I'm Kitty (or Kath) and a good friend of Clares.

Thank you for the email. I've been very lucky tho - along with Julie - Ann and Sid have allowed me to see Clare whilst she has been so very ill. I was with Julie when Sid told us she was terminal. It has been such a shock and so heartbreaking. I usually speak to Clare every day - to me...she is my best friend.

I saw her yesterday aswell and was happy to see that one of the Doctors who was looking after her was someone I had worked with before (I'm a nurse). He's very handsome and I hoped that put a bit of a spring in her spirit. I've not seen her since she moved to the Oncology ward last night, as I am now on night duty. I will go in and see her on Friday. Julie and I speak every day and plan on having a drink for her after we visit Friday night (Australia Day drinks - I'm Australian - and Clare would normally be out on such a night).

Anyway, Clare used to tell me about you and spoke of you fondly. It was clear you are her very good friend. Something you no doubt know...but I thought I'd mention it all the same.

Take Care.

Kitty .

2007/01/23 22:11 Rosee

Ok. Thought I'd try. I'll still send messages thru in case she wants 2 read them. If u think I should stop @ any time let me know. The HK posse will start texting soon. I'll send u their email so u r in the loop

23-Jan-2007 22:11 Rosee

From: Rosemary Ufot Laurence ;
Date: 23-Jan-2007 22:11
Subject: Fwd: Clare Turkington

To: Dave Powell, Karen Adam, ianlantauhk, jas.bushell, Mandip Chowdhary ;, Katherine Shutt, joaniemagill, Christopher Lovejoy-Black, taffinda, tania_scott, Catherine Tong ;

Hi All

Sorry to be the bearer of bad news but our Clare is seriously ill and I thought you might like to know.

Please read the emails from the bottom up

Her friend Julie and her family are the only ones who can see her right now.

You can contact Julie on "Julie Officer!" ,

Rosee

2007/01/23 20:47 Julie

She's not had her phone on, doesn't want to read cards either. Had a bad day comfort and pain wise. Talkin hospis now.

2007/01/23 12.22 Rosee

Morning Clare.It's so cold!Cud snow.U never guess who was walking along beach 1 morning in Grenada but Dave Pearce!I haven't seen him in 10 years&was so suprised 2 c him!He was w/a friend,Fiona.I didn't want 2 take up 2 much of his time.They were flying out next day.Thought of u

22-Jan-2007 22:18 Stuart and Anne

From: Stuart Hellier ;
Date: 22-Jan-2007 22:18
Subject: Re: Clare
To: Emma Levine, taniawillis, kslantau, padam, ridlydidly, joanwillox, wickrob

Hello all,

I've just phoned Julie (Clare's friend who was with her in Dublin when the illness began, and who is with her everyday in hospital). Clare was moved to the oncology ward today and was back to the Clare that we all know and love. Ordering Julie around and even asking for her mobile. For the first time in six days, Clare finally slept.

Yesterday was a really frightning day with Clare hallucanating and in too much pain. Julie said that she is on such a high tonight that she saw a glimps of the Clare she knows, again ordering her about and even asking for her mobile.

But the doctors had told Clare over the weekend that the cancer was not curable. Clare's reaction was no to Chemo and that if she had a heart attack that she did not want to be revived. Her step father Sid and mother Anne do not know that the cancer has spread to her lungs, not that Clare is hiding things. I am sure they will be told. Because of this they have asked Clare to seek any form of treatment and Sid explained that as she has been in so much pain and only just recovering from surgery that maybe she should hold off on her decision until she starts getting stronger.

Today is a ray of light. Julie did make me laugh though,saying that Clare would be telling her off tommorow because her mobile will be full to the brim with messages. I'm holding off texting her until tommorow afternoon. I wasn't going to at all as I can't begin to understand the level of exhaustion that she is at. The last thing I want to do is burden her.

I know that you are all praying for her. Keep up the good work.

Much love

Anne X

2007/01/22 22:06 Rosee

Hi Clare.How r u?Really sorry 2 hear about ur health.Hope u r bearing up w/ it all.Wud love 2 c u or speak u-let me know when is gd.Julie's been great!

2007/01/22 22:01 Rosee

Thanks. I'll text her.

2007/01/22 22:00 Julie

Clare is on the oncology ward and has her phone with her. She seems good, better than i ever imagined but very tired. X

2007/01/18 13:24 Julie

Still in intensive care, drifting in & out of consciousness. Everything being monitored and controlled, not really much difference from yesterday. Spoke to anne-said she'd like to visit but think she should wait til next week when on normal ward. Know clare would prefer it.

2007/01/18 07:39 Rosee

Anne. I'm in Grenada til Monday so difficult 2 call but I'll give u Julie's number. I'll send a seperate text. Not sure when she'll b up 4 visitors

2007/01/17 20.30 Julie

It's come as a shock to everyone. Out of blue. Surgeon said rare in someone so young. She was unwell over xmas, gp thought kidney stones. Ny was bloated and in pain. Back in uk stomach contined to swell. Admitted to lewishham thro a&e found tumor then sent to guy's. Everyday got worse, bigger. Couldn't breath. Fingers x for her. Will tell u how she is tomorrow, but looks much better, tummy gone down too. U take care. X

2007/01/17 20:22 Rosee

Thanks Julie.I just can't believe it!So great u r there 4 her.How did this happen?Is there a history of it in family?I had no idea.I am praying 4 her

2007/01/17 20:22 Rosee

2007/01/17 20:18 Rosee

Stu,Anne.Clare in hospital.Quite serious.Just got news from her friend Julie.Back from hols Monday & will know more then.Thought u might like 2 know
2007/01/17 20:18 Rosee

2007/01/17 19:32 Julie

It's cancer- more advanced than they suspected. Think its spread to bowel from kidney but won't know origins until biopsy result come back sat. They will also determine corse of chemo. She's doing well. She is a good colour, temp normal, breathing 10x better so she actually looks better than she did in days-all bar ventilator. Needs to heal before chemo can start. The fight begins!
2007/01/17 19:32 Julie

2007/01/17 14:08 Julie

She's in guy's. parents with her so u wouldn't get to see her. She's not able to talk anyway, just sleeping. Could be days til she recovers from op. Syd said they think cancer in kidney and bowel but won't know til take biopsy. Fingers xed. She's a fighter.
2007/01/17 14:08 Julie

2007/01/17 13:36 Rosee

Oh my goodness. Where is she & what ward? Can I c her?
2007/01/17 13:36 Rosee

2007/01/17 12.38 Julie

It's very serious. She's going back into surgery this pm. She has tumour on kidney and they think there's another one pressing on bowel. Stomach is huge-pressing and stopping her breathing. They need to relieve pressure. There's chance she may not survive op

2007/01/17 07:40 Rosee

Hi Julie. I had on idea. She was ill b4 I went away but I thought it was just a cold thing. I'm back on Monday so I'll ring. What r her symptoms?

2007/01/16 19:16 Julie

Hi rosee. Did you know clare was in hospital? She's very ill and been getting worse daily. She had a biopsy today and is in hdu. Still no diagnosis. Her mum and syd are with her and i'm waiting for news. Sorry for this text. Thought you'd like to know. Hug. Julie.
2007/01/16 19:16 Julie

2007/01/06 21:41 Clare Turkington

Happy new year! I am not well and cant talk. Have a great holiday and will speak on your return. X

2007/01/06 21:41 Clare Turkington